Something Better

I found this photo somewhere online (a tumblr account, I think) in the last month or so and it spoke to me. I've always loved to collect quotes, so I saved this little gem for later use. It came in handy when the time arrived for me to choose a direction for my blog.

I have been (for the past year) starting over. My relationship with my husband was nearly broken. So much so that I had given up on saving him from his self-imposed unhappiness. He was lost to me. I had fought the good fight, and was about to accept defeat. It went against my nature. It cut away my pride. The unthinkable occurred. I surrendered. I quit trying to fix the unfixable. Just as I was washing the battlefield grime from my worn hands, something happened. Something changed.

I didn't know what it was. I still don't. But after I turned to walk away, one foot already heading in a new direction, he reached for my hand. It was a silent request. I can't tell you what prompted him. Maybe the silence after the long battle was deafening and he couldn't ignore it? Perhaps he sensed my resignation? It could be that ironic timing was at play here. It was too little. And it was too late. But a good warrior takes an "in" when it's given, especially when winning the most worthy fight of her life is at stake. I took it. In doing so, Od and I have been fighting our way back together. There's no right. There's no wrong. Only shared victory.

This past year has seen many,  many changes for us. All good. Our journey is adventurous, passionate, and so far, never-ending.

We're claiming our new happiness together, leaving the past where it belongs. There's nothing to discuss. Nothing to fix. I have my partner back. What we're doing is creating something new. Something better.

Who is Freya?

I went looking for an identity that I could relate to. I had my new blog title and address (which hold their own meaning that I'll explain). Now what? Who will I be? I wanted my ID to have something to do with change. Goddess of change? Rebirth? Enlightenment? In my search I came upon Hecate - goddess of the crossroads, guardian of the household, protecter of the oppressed and those who lived on the edge. A moon goddess who reminds others of the importance of change, to release the past especially those things that hinder growth, and to accept transition. Hmm. Maybe. It fit, but I don't like the name. I liked this goddess idea though. Who else was there to choose from?

Then I found Freya. A blonde, blue-eyed Norse goddess of love, beauty, and war. You can read up on her here.
She's versatile, possessing disparate natures. As a battle-worthy warrior she is fierce, but as a woman she's the embodiment of beauty, raw sexuality, and incredible lust. Her unbridled exploits are legendary, leaving Aphrodite's escapades pale in comparison.

As much passion and joy she's experienced she has been equally sad and lonely, having lost her husband Od. During their seperation an endless winter took over while she searched for him, never giving up. Finally she found her lost love and with their reconciled happiness, spring blossomed .

Her duality allows her strong side to fight her battles using the proper means necessary and her soft side to be sensual and loving to those she favors.

It's strange to me that I had never heard of her before, because..well, she sounds awesome. She also sounds more like me than I thought possible. I hope she doesn't mind if I take over her persona.

So readers, meet Freya. Me. You'll be getting plenty of opportunity to know me. As my profile says - my passions are abundant, vigorous, and unrestrained. I hope you like. ;)

Sexual Bucket List

In my world love and sex are intertwined. It's only fitting that on a day that is meant to celebrate love, we talk about sex, too. I found this fun Sexual Bucket List on a few blogs and decided to play along.

Happy Valentine's Day to all those who love, and I hope we all get to cross at least one thing off our list tonight!

1. Kiss a girl   yes. 3 when I was much younger. (to practice on)
2. Have anal   yes. love it.
3. Have a threesome   sadly, no. maybe if we branch out one day.
4. Engage in group sex   no.
5. Have phone sex   dirty talk, but not full on w/touching.
6. Masturbate   yes.
7. Use a vibrator   ooh, yes. and I have a wide variety.
8. Use a sex toy on someone else   mm hmm. he loves them too. again - a wide variety!
9. Be tied up   yes, just 2 days ago. ;)
10. Tie someone up   yes. I'm a big fan of cuffs and restraints
11. Have sex in a public space   outside in neighbor's yard count?
12. Be a voyeur and watch others having sex (live, porn does not count) no. would love to.
13. Sex in a car   yes.
14. Sex at a drive-in   no.
15. Mile-high club   no.
16. Sex with a stranger   no.
17. One-night stand   yes.
18. Married sex (the best kind, in my opinion)   lots and lots and lots.........
19. Sex on a boat   no.
20. Sex in a body of water   yes.
21. Light spanking   yes. giving and receiving!
22. Read erotica   yes. it's what I mostly read. I love good smut!
23. Play strip poker/Monopoly/card game   no.
24. Sex in the shower   yes.
25. Sex standing up against a wall   no.
26. Sex with no kissing   one time. never again.
27. Sex in the pitch black   probably.
28. Sex in the broad daylight   yes
29. Making out with no sex long after you're no longer a virgin   yes!!! tease and denial, anyone?
30. Sex in a tent in the wilderness   no.
31. Watch porn together   yes.
32. Watch porn alone   yes.
33. Learn to give yourself multiple orgasms   yes, w/small refractory period. (a few minutes) it's rare.
34. Sex on the beach   no.
35. Blindfolds   yep.
36. Using ice sexually   oh yeah! that's a good story.......(for the record, I don't like cold sex)
37. Sexual role play   not really.
38. Whipped cream   i'm sure my nips have been adorned at some point.
39. La Perla lingerie sex   no.
40. Frederick's of Hollywood lingerie sex   no.
41. Sex with someone much older   no. only 6 years.
42. Sex with someone younger (legal!)   no. always went for older guys.
43. Sex in a foreign country, possibly with a foreigner   could've. should've. but I was engaged.
44. A quickie in a skirt   yes. sans panties, naturally!
45. A longie in the rain   no. rain is cold. see answer qualification # 36.
46. Sex in the ocean while people swim all around you   no and no.
47. Feather ticklers   yes. actual pheasant feather.
48. Sex while "altered" whether by alcohol or something else a handful of times. I'm not a fan.
49. Learn to orgasm in less than five minutes from intercourse alone    yes. with time to spare!
50. Silent sex in a full house   silent? as best as I could manage. ;)

How many have you done? And what's on your bucket list?